for Several Weeks (or is it Month) Now, my Ennemies have been trying to get me to comply to THEIR (ridiculous) Standards of Living:
- Shower Every Day
- Change My Sheets Every Day
- And also clean My Towels Every Day
- Eat Bland Cooking (basically Butters Worth Style Meals)
Ironically these Ridiculous Freaks* do not realise that what is more Relevance, is that this Torture basically makes me seem Like a Whore/Martha Stewart... Almost Live Like one:
- Strong Stench and Sweaty Crotch Area...
- Changing your Sheets Every Day, because they've been Spermed on, and Clean Towels For their Clients...
And altough I HATE my (Voodoo/Magic) Achne, they at least make it obvious that atleast I can't be one of the Whore Versions: a Martha Stewarts... Even Both actually, but I guess not according to the Martha Stewarts...
Otherwise, they are also harrasing me by making feel like a Puppet when I clean Up by imposing that Aura on me, and sending off very subtle signals, almost brainwashing me and Also litterally somewhat unconcsiously making me clean up certain things almost automaically... There also oddlly seems to be purposefull Mess done while I sleep, like stains on the floor, and also strange Luck, to make Me Stain My Sheets, or Strange Luck That makes my Cleaning Up more Effortful... And there's a Sublte General Feeling of Hyperactivity, Impulsivity, Disorientation and Stress... And here and there there's "interesting"** unbearable Clumsyness, and Peaks of Unberable Cripling Stress...
The Dilema with the Cleaning up issue, is that I believe it is also an issue to Martha Stewarts... And the Coercive Manipulations they do to me because of this issue, Makes me seems like a Martha Stewart... Which is unbearable, but is Ironically also helping me Understand how the Various Types of Martha Stewarts Are... And why most Male Martha Stewarts***, and other Men in Masonry (and sometimes I wonder whether they are all Martha Stewarts). Otherwise, I personally also like it better when my appartment is clean and tidy, but given that there is a Strange Surplus Mess, including a Strange amount of Dust Acumulation (from paussed Time sessions****)... But... The problem is the torture I feel when I clean up... Drives me insane... So I try to keep some strange kind of Balance between Messy and Tidy... Like leaving some of the Dust... And Some Mess... And, I do this not only to torture the freaks who are want to illegally coerce and brainwash me into living by their standards, or something that will satisfy their Sick HATE for me (an interesting NEED to make me a whore and/or porn Star as well as a Skanky Slut, or at least make me seem as one...), but also because an Excessive Mess can be used against me as a reason to claim that I am unable to take care of myself on my own, and there fore need a "Little" "Pleasent" "Curative" trip to the Mental Home... Which as you might or hopefully already KNOW drives me Insane with PARANOIA (Mainly due to visions I had of things that happened to me in Mental Homes & Cliniques while I was on Amna)...
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*: Which I am Hopefully Torturing by Not giving into their Ridiculous Standards...
**: It is not just Physically and Mentally Unbearable, but there's also a Freak that Speaks through the sounds of this clumsyness, and nearly always or always says useless and excrutiatingly mentally Painful "Whats" as they Happen...
***: Who see themselves above Female Martha Stewarts, because they suposedly are the only ones who have a chance with me, when actually, it's all relative... But I do admit, that it is more likely that given the current Genetic Trend in the Female Gender, the Males have a Better Chance... Although it drives me insane, how so many of them do not realise, that especially at this point, there are nearly none of them who are my "type" and actually, I KNOW... There are basically NONE.
****: These really Anger me... And I am also very Angry about who May be lurking in my appartment during these "sessions" as well as when I sleep... But mostly I waiting to know to react... Although the though of certain possibilities is driving me insane... And if the worst is TRUE, it is beyond who isn't Arians (or has truth Technology/Angels of Truth) understanding how much Anger and Wrath I will unleach upon those responsible (of course within Legal bounderies)... And please understand the power of my extensive imagination is beyond any one else's or nearly anyone eles's, and vengenece is what has the highest value in my eyes these days... So I will go on FOREVER to punnish the guilty for their crimes... Even for Evey Little Thing...
...
- Shower Every Day
- Change My Sheets Every Day
- And also clean My Towels Every Day
- Eat Bland Cooking (basically Butters Worth Style Meals)
Ironically these Ridiculous Freaks* do not realise that what is more Relevance, is that this Torture basically makes me seem Like a Whore/Martha Stewart... Almost Live Like one:
- Strong Stench and Sweaty Crotch Area...
- Changing your Sheets Every Day, because they've been Spermed on, and Clean Towels For their Clients...
And altough I HATE my (Voodoo/Magic) Achne, they at least make it obvious that atleast I can't be one of the Whore Versions: a Martha Stewarts... Even Both actually, but I guess not according to the Martha Stewarts...
Otherwise, they are also harrasing me by making feel like a Puppet when I clean Up by imposing that Aura on me, and sending off very subtle signals, almost brainwashing me and Also litterally somewhat unconcsiously making me clean up certain things almost automaically... There also oddlly seems to be purposefull Mess done while I sleep, like stains on the floor, and also strange Luck, to make Me Stain My Sheets, or Strange Luck That makes my Cleaning Up more Effortful... And there's a Sublte General Feeling of Hyperactivity, Impulsivity, Disorientation and Stress... And here and there there's "interesting"** unbearable Clumsyness, and Peaks of Unberable Cripling Stress...
The Dilema with the Cleaning up issue, is that I believe it is also an issue to Martha Stewarts... And the Coercive Manipulations they do to me because of this issue, Makes me seems like a Martha Stewart... Which is unbearable, but is Ironically also helping me Understand how the Various Types of Martha Stewarts Are... And why most Male Martha Stewarts***, and other Men in Masonry (and sometimes I wonder whether they are all Martha Stewarts). Otherwise, I personally also like it better when my appartment is clean and tidy, but given that there is a Strange Surplus Mess, including a Strange amount of Dust Acumulation (from paussed Time sessions****)... But... The problem is the torture I feel when I clean up... Drives me insane... So I try to keep some strange kind of Balance between Messy and Tidy... Like leaving some of the Dust... And Some Mess... And, I do this not only to torture the freaks who are want to illegally coerce and brainwash me into living by their standards, or something that will satisfy their Sick HATE for me (an interesting NEED to make me a whore and/or porn Star as well as a Skanky Slut, or at least make me seem as one...), but also because an Excessive Mess can be used against me as a reason to claim that I am unable to take care of myself on my own, and there fore need a "Little" "Pleasent" "Curative" trip to the Mental Home... Which as you might or hopefully already KNOW drives me Insane with PARANOIA (Mainly due to visions I had of things that happened to me in Mental Homes & Cliniques while I was on Amna)...
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*: Which I am Hopefully Torturing by Not giving into their Ridiculous Standards...
**: It is not just Physically and Mentally Unbearable, but there's also a Freak that Speaks through the sounds of this clumsyness, and nearly always or always says useless and excrutiatingly mentally Painful "Whats" as they Happen...
***: Who see themselves above Female Martha Stewarts, because they suposedly are the only ones who have a chance with me, when actually, it's all relative... But I do admit, that it is more likely that given the current Genetic Trend in the Female Gender, the Males have a Better Chance... Although it drives me insane, how so many of them do not realise, that especially at this point, there are nearly none of them who are my "type" and actually, I KNOW... There are basically NONE.
****: These really Anger me... And I am also very Angry about who May be lurking in my appartment during these "sessions" as well as when I sleep... But mostly I waiting to know to react... Although the though of certain possibilities is driving me insane... And if the worst is TRUE, it is beyond who isn't Arians (or has truth Technology/Angels of Truth) understanding how much Anger and Wrath I will unleach upon those responsible (of course within Legal bounderies)... And please understand the power of my extensive imagination is beyond any one else's or nearly anyone eles's, and vengenece is what has the highest value in my eyes these days... So I will go on FOREVER to punnish the guilty for their crimes... Even for Evey Little Thing...
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